You were my sunshine the very reason for my every breath,
Now this situation has become a nightmare and drained me of all I had left,

The words from your mouth "I don't want anything to do with her" haunt me every night
Every morning I awake I ask myself if he don't want anything to do with you why do you still fight?

The answer is I fight this battle because I love you -always have this I want you to know
But it is you who refuses to let our mother and son natural bond flourish and grow,

I waited so long for so many years to see your sweet beautiful face,
For you to only "shoe me away" as if I am a total disgrace,

From day one I wouldn't give up, looked for you and even wrote letters over the years,
Incomplete without you my every day full of routinely tears,

For almost 17 years my life has been nothing but hurt anger and despair,
I would have done or gave anything just to have you near,

When you see me in passing you walk right past me like I don't even exist,
Not one word from your mouth even a simple hello, because of this I can no longer persist,

I love you son but it is now time for me to move on,
Time to live life for me, time to except that you are gone,

I've let my whole life past me by because it revolved around you and only you,
You have spoken your peace and there is nothing else that I can do,

I can no longer live in your shadow, I have to fly, I must spread my wings,
It's time to open the door to my life now and see what it may bring,

I know that you might not understand that you are full of anger and that you are hurt and mad,
Even so, I would or could never treat the person whom gave me life so bad,

Trying to have me thrown is jail hurts  more than the day I gave you birth,
As if that wasn't enough I am now being sues for my net worth,

I know it is them who are doing all of these things, but still so with your support,
You've had say in this which could have made them think twice or even abort,

The Lord tells me not to judge and that all of this I should forgive,
That after all is said and done I will still want and love you as long as I live,

It is sad that on this earth we are not mother and son or even friends,
But I trust in the Lord that in Heaven our relationship will began,

I can no longer withstand all this selfishness full of anger and lies,
So it is to you my son I have to now let go and say good-bye,

I hope you understand as grow older all that has been done was out of love,
I wanted you to  know growing up you was always wanted and loved by us and thought of,

I never wanted you to think for one time that you were not wanted,
Because you father and I did all we could and for you we hunted,

We waited all these years for so very long to be with you and to rejoice,
We wanted you to know this whole adoption was never that of our choice,

I wish I could burn your tattooed name right off the side of my neck,
Every time I look in the mirror you still reflect,

Now I must ask the Lord to take every last part of you out of my heart,
Because living with out you tears me all apart,

I will beg him to get you out of my soul, mind and my brain,
Because having you there and not in my life is driving me insane,

I can no longer live with these lies, pain and regret,
The only way I can move on is you I must forget,

It will be so hard the worst thing in my life I have ever thought and done,
I will have to leave Ohio so again into you I will not run,

I will now morn for you my son, because to me you are dead,
It is the only way I know how my love to end this dread,

May the Lord watch over you and you he always protect,
While I pray you will never be full of this kind of  pain and reject

SANTANA

Why Don't You And I

Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies... and not right
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like your never going to come around
If I said it didn't matter then you know I'd lied

Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Seems like everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right 

So I so say 'why don't you and I get togehter and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in

And slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end
Right about the same you walk by
And I say 'Oh here we go again'

When's this ever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any mom can take
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around
And it's  not right
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like your never going to come around
If I said it didn't matter then you know I'd lied

So I so say 'why don't you and I get togehter and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in